Begin before you are ready.
Two months ago, I wrote the article below and decided to repost it and provide an update on what has changed for me in the last two months. Every day I can make a conscious choice in my life; I can choose liberation and love instead of fear of rejection and imperfection. Fear is part of our lives — there is not much we can control, but we have control over how we react and respond to fear.
Edith Eger, in her book “The Gift,” said:
“Fear uses the most insistent, relentless, provocative words: what if, what if, what if? When fear comes like a panic storm, and your body shakes and your heart races and the trauma you already survived threatens to swallow you, take your own precious hand and say, “Thank you, fear, for wanting to protect me.” Then say, “That was then, this is now.” Say it over and over again. You already made it. Here you are. Wrap your arms around yourself and run your own shoulders. “Attagirl,” you say. “I love you.”
Growing up, I believed I wasn’t special and was often reminded of it. With time I created a belief that I wasn’t good enough to be successful or, better yet, to find someone who would love me just the way I was. As time passed, I was convinced I needed someone else who’d filled this hole in my heart. I believed I needed others like I needed oxygen. It became my identity.
I was always there for people, even if that meant giving away a piece of my soul. I was hungry for love and acceptance. I neglected my boundaries and integrity just to be loved, belong, and be enough. Struggling with self-love and self-acceptance became the biggest struggle in my personal and professional life.
Even when I found the perfect guy and got the ideal job, my happiness and fulfillment continued to be out of reach; my life continued to be filled with loneliness, compromises, misunderstandings, and miscommunications. I continued to feel lost and out of alignment.
Have you ever felt you couldn’t be yourself at home while surrounded by your loved ones or friends? Or at work where being yourself wasn’t accepted or “required”? Have you ever been told that to be loved or successful, you needed to adjust to the “norm,” keep your mouth shut, be different, or be more like…?
What if I told you that all of this is just nonsense, and YOU have the power to change it?
In mid-2020, I was miserable at work, AND my romantic relationship just came to an end. I returned to the empty house where the memories of my happiness swirled around. I tried to keep my life together for the sake of my two beautiful children, but I was on autopilot. I cooked and cleaned; I drove them to and from school and asked about their days. But inside, I was empty, broken, and alone. I slowly closed doors to my friends, family, and coworkers. I just wanted to be alone. I kept asking myself how this came to be my life. Couldn’t it be just them? And if not them, then what’s wrong with ME? Still broken and weak, I decided something had to change. I had to change!
I went on a self-discovery journey before I was ready. I took the smallest step in my recovery and found a therapist, then a coach. I started reading a lot to realize how broken I was and how much trauma I’ve carried inside my heart for most of my life. I slowly transformed myself and my life. It was the most challenging job I’ve ever done.
I choose to share my journey to self-acceptance with you to show what is possible. I show up in my personal and professional life open, vulnerable, loving, caring, kind, and at peace. Every day I choose to create a beautiful life for myself and my two amazing kids with INTEGRITY, lots of LOVE, and PLAYFULNESS knowing that I’m enough! I have new beliefs. I created a new identity.
This transformation led me to set my compass toward a new horizon. I'm on a mission to empower females who are ready to go on a transformation journey despite the beliefs and identities that were passed down to them. I’m excited to work with driven, committed, and hardworking individuals who want to fulfill their destinies but are told their dream has no place to live. I support those ready to strip away limiting beliefs and identities around success, leadership, and power that hold them back from creating the life they love while being bold and unapologetic for who they are.
If you’re ready to let go of beliefs that keep you “safe” from creating the life you love or building a business from your dreams, drop a note below and share the first step you are CHOOSING to take today. However small, however big! You got this!
